Splitting
I've currently got one of the worst headaches of my life and definitely one of the most painful stomach aches I've ever endured.
But i'm not thinking about it right after this in the hope that the aches and pains would subside.
God has been merciful and has helped me endure 4 long weeks of suffering. No, not the headaches although I did get some headaches (or rather, migraines) ;but my exams. It has been a whole load of stress on me, locking myself up in the room. What really causes this splitting headache to worsen is the prospect of listening to two most exam oriented (and possibly, driven) people talk on and on about how dumb they are for getting 80%.
Oh someone please shoot me.
What also makes the migraine worse is the fact that I slaved so hard for certain subjects and I know I still won't be seeing an A. Or a B. A C could be likely, a D, almost guaranteed and a big fat F in additional maths..well.. that's as probable as you taking your next breath.
I have a stumbling block. I cannot do maths. I really can't. It's not that I hate it, or it hates me (hmm.. possible tho.. nah) it's just that I lose my focus and memory so fast when I'm completing sums. Of course, I have found the solution to my problem, and that is to change my attitude and shove math propagandas into my head as much as possible. No more Fs next year, for sure. Too long have I stood feeling stupid. Unfortunately, I realised this wonderful solution TWO DAYS before my test.
So yeap. My own fault for not using my brain earlier. Shucks. But I guess it's God's grace that I managed to realise this one year before my SPM. But looking at my record, near major exam months, my grades usually get better. I call this symptom, 'panicking'.
I always find it a great joy to collect exams that are orientated on essays. And it was a comforting thought to find oneself in the top 10 in EST essays after a blow of addmaths. It's sort of like someone punching you and then giving you a pillow. Hehe.
Actually I'm not that upset about my addmaths maybe because I know what to do now. All I'm worried about is that I'll drop a class. My goodness, to get out of B class (that was really really hard) only to drop back to it the next year would be horrendous. Not to mention the fact that this year's B class stands for a big fat boring.
And if I go back to B again, I'll definitely be tempted to study less because there isn't much pressure. When I was form 1, I was placed into the most awful class I've ever been JUST because I was a chinese girl. Being chinese and being a girl gives you great disadvantages in my school.
So I got a B for BM in my UPSR but I got all As in everything else. So my name started with a 'T' and therefore I was one of the last to be sifted into the classes. So there wasn't any 'room' left in the better class by the time they reached my name.
I'm so going to call my daughter or son, Aaly and Aal. Or something like that.
Anyway, I got number 1 in that class without even studying, for the entire year. This mentality, unfortunately, dragged on when I moved to the upper classes. I still got pretty good marks. The trouble only started when Form 4 started. Thus, this is a big push telling me to "wake up and study la you lazy bum!".
Gotcha.
Can't wait till I retire.
Hehe.. but I'm still in a relatively joyful mood now because EXAMS are OVER!!!! Muahaha.
Take care everyone and study hard in upper secondary. Hehe.
But i'm not thinking about it right after this in the hope that the aches and pains would subside.
God has been merciful and has helped me endure 4 long weeks of suffering. No, not the headaches although I did get some headaches (or rather, migraines) ;but my exams. It has been a whole load of stress on me, locking myself up in the room. What really causes this splitting headache to worsen is the prospect of listening to two most exam oriented (and possibly, driven) people talk on and on about how dumb they are for getting 80%.
Oh someone please shoot me.
What also makes the migraine worse is the fact that I slaved so hard for certain subjects and I know I still won't be seeing an A. Or a B. A C could be likely, a D, almost guaranteed and a big fat F in additional maths..well.. that's as probable as you taking your next breath.
I have a stumbling block. I cannot do maths. I really can't. It's not that I hate it, or it hates me (hmm.. possible tho.. nah) it's just that I lose my focus and memory so fast when I'm completing sums. Of course, I have found the solution to my problem, and that is to change my attitude and shove math propagandas into my head as much as possible. No more Fs next year, for sure. Too long have I stood feeling stupid. Unfortunately, I realised this wonderful solution TWO DAYS before my test.
So yeap. My own fault for not using my brain earlier. Shucks. But I guess it's God's grace that I managed to realise this one year before my SPM. But looking at my record, near major exam months, my grades usually get better. I call this symptom, 'panicking'.
I always find it a great joy to collect exams that are orientated on essays. And it was a comforting thought to find oneself in the top 10 in EST essays after a blow of addmaths. It's sort of like someone punching you and then giving you a pillow. Hehe.
Actually I'm not that upset about my addmaths maybe because I know what to do now. All I'm worried about is that I'll drop a class. My goodness, to get out of B class (that was really really hard) only to drop back to it the next year would be horrendous. Not to mention the fact that this year's B class stands for a big fat boring.
And if I go back to B again, I'll definitely be tempted to study less because there isn't much pressure. When I was form 1, I was placed into the most awful class I've ever been JUST because I was a chinese girl. Being chinese and being a girl gives you great disadvantages in my school.
So I got a B for BM in my UPSR but I got all As in everything else. So my name started with a 'T' and therefore I was one of the last to be sifted into the classes. So there wasn't any 'room' left in the better class by the time they reached my name.
I'm so going to call my daughter or son, Aaly and Aal. Or something like that.
Anyway, I got number 1 in that class without even studying, for the entire year. This mentality, unfortunately, dragged on when I moved to the upper classes. I still got pretty good marks. The trouble only started when Form 4 started. Thus, this is a big push telling me to "wake up and study la you lazy bum!".
Gotcha.
Can't wait till I retire.
Hehe.. but I'm still in a relatively joyful mood now because EXAMS are OVER!!!! Muahaha.
Take care everyone and study hard in upper secondary. Hehe.
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